Last week I read excerpts of my book; Adirondack Retreat My Midlife Journey to Wholeness, in Tupper Lake where I wrote the book nine years ago. Each time I read it something new touches me deeply...
"My entire life I have strived for perfection in all things and based my ability to be loved on achieving that perfection. On this journey I've learned that striving for perfection is harmful to my health and well-being, a waste of precious time and energy, and all for nothing. I've recognized that approval is what I was really looking for, and that it has nothing to do with love. I have sought approval my whole damned life...and I finally get it! The only approval I need is my own."
The gift of self-study, introspection and a strong meditation practice is what revealed the painful truth of my patterns, thoughts and beliefs. This discovery set me free...and there was so much more. The interesting thing about perfection is the definition: "the condition, state, or quality of being free or as free as possible from all flaws or defects." I was held captive by my own beliefs that perfection was necessary for approval and love.
In letting go of striving for perfection I have found tremendous freedom. The freedom to be human, to give my very best to each and every moment of life and to love and accept myself as I Am.
With love & blessings,